My surgery went wonderfully well. I didn't need a full incision. Everything was done in 3 little incisions and one medium sized one. I'm stapled shut.
Now, as for recovery? I'm irritable, moody, sad, anxious to get back up and moving, I tire easiliy and I'm bored. I feel as though I am a huge burden to my family. And I get really bitchy really fast. To think, I even have my ovaries. Could you imagine if they were removed as well? LOL!!!!! I think my husband shudders at the thought.
I just want to feel better. I balked at the perscription for 60 pain pills. That seemed like WAY too many. I'm realizing it's not. IN fact, it's quite reasonable. I may end up using them all and looking for more.
Now, ask me, would I do it again if I knew this is how I'd feel? Oh my stars, yes. I couldn't imagine NOT doing it. It was and will be the best thing I've ever done.
I sat here, today, and said, you know, I thought I'd feel differently. A very important part of my body is gone forever. Much like I "felt" pregnant even early in my pregnancies, I thought I would feel "empty" without my uterus. But, so far, anyway, I don't. If it weren't for the discomfort and the incisions, I'd never know anything was really done. It will be weird not anticipating a period. I wonder if I will anticipate it from time to time then have one of those "oh duh" moments. I suppose time will tell.
I feel as if I've come full circle. My son was born 12 years ago on February 12th. It was during that c-section that I almost died. Now, 12 years later, I'm saying goodbye to the very organ that kept him alive for almost 10 months inside me.
I had to smile when the doctor apologized for having me on the maternity floor. He said all of his patients go there. He said he did request a private room for me, so I didn't have to see/hear babies. I laughed and said that didn't bother me at all. Most of his patients aren't as emotionally ok with this surgery as I was. I was more than ok for it. I would have begged if he had said no. I'm thankful it is done.